50 longg hours since then.

well… yes, it’s already been 50 hours of being just me.

lonely. yeah, but i guess its in a way neccessary?
i really miss you!

it’s now, more than ever, i do realize how so many of my friends support me in times of loneliness, in times of heartache. and i thank God for them (:

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lets change the mood!

13th! it was marvellous.
i woke up at 6.56 – 4 minutes before the wake-up call q:
we started the awesome day with WALKING to “the” school! haha, was interesting. but it started getting more and more tense and awkward, more stress, and i guess for me… disappointment. (i’m being honest)
ANYWAYS, lotsa things started getting livelier a few minutes before lunch q: THANK YOU! haha for the secret stuff which made me a lot happier (: haha, and after lunch when we had a NEW PERSON coming, well… YAY! haha the movie was awesome (: sorry if i dont know how to answer you if you ask me about it though q: was um, distracted much… haha.

but yes! more stuff happen which made the day more and more happy, more and more special! and i really really loved it! too bad she had to leave at around 9pm though…

and from 9 started my lonliness.
ASTROBOY was nice, but it could’ve been nicer.
cant be helped? i just miss you.

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14th!

well besides being in BB, CMI talk, then missions training, there was one real main feeling groaning in my heart, a longing which couldnt really be satisfied, a thirst which wouldnt be quenched.
i was sour and bitter inside, but with an outlook of joy and retardedness. i hate hiding my feelings ):

things started going well after the CMI talk though, it was really good (: like really, really good. haha, haven’t had a good, useful spam of science for eons. how refreshing q: and from there chris really helped me a lot to get back onto my normal, genuinely retarded self (: thanks kor.

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15! TODAY!

was AWESOME! haha again (:
things seem to be slowly getting better and better.
i’m learning how to cope. anyway, its just a few more days (: haha.

MUSICAL PRACTICE! it was just sooo fun today! haha, i had believers until 9pm-ish. really really good stuff! cant wait for the musical! cant wait for the next practice! it was just so cooool! the crowd, the love, the humour, the acting, dacing, singing, music, everything just seems to be so awesome. awesome, in its full splendour, is even an understatement. its just awesome that we can glorify God in this manner, not just on the musical day itself, but in every practice, in the fellowship and love that only comes from God.

COME FOR MY CHURCH’S MUSICAL! haha, 5th and 6th Dec.
its really good! haha wont be disappointed. drop me an email if youre interested ya? you should know my email (:

i’m starting a countdown already.. haha hurry! q:
miss you!
love,

ted.

pink-small-cute-cuddly! (love again q:)

konnichiwa.

been eons since i last posted right? haha my bad.
i guess its natural that some people stopped reading or checking. hahaha i mean it WAS a dead blog.

post-exam period is awesome (: wait no, that’s an understatement.
well… just plain sweet!
filled with anime, sounding horns, bots, BB, friends, stayovers, halo… and uh, music..
& ive changed a lot too (: naturally. haha, i’m not some awkward dude in the corner anymore (uh, depending on how you know me and how you see me, you may think differently) haha but yeah!

tuesdays, fridays and sundays are blessed (: tell you there isn’t any other day in a week like tuesdays, fridays and sundays(: like totally q: 2/8 (first?), 9/8 (missed q: first too!), 1/9 (totally wow), 13/9(bdae), 20/10 (school), 23/10 (first visit!), 25/10 (conference room), 3/11 (home!), 6/11 (bugis), 7/11 (home!), 8/11 (conference room), 10/11 (kallang)
hahahahahahahahaha whee q: oooh 13/11! (futuristic)

yupyup ttyl guys!
i wont be that dead online anymore k? try not to (:

cya!
-ted
…. wet?

back from craziness?

heya ppl.

sorry havent been online at all for ages! haha, been having events after events, courseworks after courswork… plus promotions, demotions, priorities and LOVE (:

haha its been awesome. like totally! cant wait to love freely and be loved without having boundaries. it will come (: i believe, all in His will and time.

now courseworks! YAY im done! and i actually did super super well (: courseworks were fun! sleeping at 3am and stuff. haha.
thenthen IMCB. omg. the best attachment EVER in my life. haha, see my facebook if you wanna see pics! haha. embryos (: haha. dechorionation and stuff. miss it sooo much! i’m so going backk!

hmm what else, if i can remember i edit this post ba.
but all in all, im glad that im finally free again! (:

now for EOYs! haha easy stuff. only 70% right? aiya just mug. haha. see ya ppl!

love,
-ted!

lovee!

haha, oh look, the title’s “love” again (:
wonder whyy q:
well just say today was one of (or THE) happiest day of me life (:

simply indescribable.

Yesterday was my dad’s birthday.
it was so fun! though it wasnt particularly extravagant,
he could sense our love for him (:
& that’s what counts

OH must tell you about friday q:
um, yeah the normal (awesome) Friday school day, with mostly free periods (:
then PIANO.. was amazingly good (:
then DANCE FoA. omg the best concert i ever went for (but didnt attend half of it)
haha we were late for the intermission, so we didnt really enter after it.
But it was soo worth it.
we made two people in this world beyond happy (: what better place could my $10 be spent on?!  just, amazing (:

haha, yep, all revolving around love isn’t it (:
sweet, sweet love.
this weekend was the love weekend (:

-ted!(:

edit:

OH YA!

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY S’PORE! (:
haha who said the pledge? i feel so patriotic now q:

blabbering

yo (:

i’m damn sian… haha school’s so monotonous! i want some fun!(:
workworkwork, all day longg. get home sleep, wake up, go school. workworkwork
fun meh?

anyway i’m freaked out!!
i’m doing devotions on thursday! to the whole school!
which is like… 3000 students? 300 staff? omg. scary.
i’m like “GOD HELP ME!! im super scared”
its more than all three services combined together.. for that 5 mins of talking!
ahhh. ): scared.

another thing to make my week a little more painful.
my specs are gone!!
i’m relying on contacts to bring me through my day. oww. so tiring.
can hardly see also…
i think i’ll stick to specs. So much more convenient, though not all that fun  q:

so yup. i’m feeling damn whiney.
like some kid.”
oh well i’m living out the name of this blog(:

…

bored.

-ted!

cry.

i’m _______ emo ):
i really really wanted to perform tonight ):
and seeing how much fun they had and how smooth it went…
makes me damn jealous!
its the final year i can perform with the year 6s.
i wont even see them at guitar no more. what the crap ):
what’s a president who doesnt even turn up for his concert???!
damn sad.

what’s worse?
im not allowed to attend Hillsong concert OR Philharmonic FoA duty tmr ):
WHAT IS THIS LUH?!
why so unfair?!
i missed 3 things i love so much.
3 things! ):
why? cause i WAS sick. (supposedly still am??!)
dammit.

-ted. ):

-edit-
my parents dont let me go for BB tmr.
SHIT, thats the final straw man.
DO I FREAKIN LOOK LIKE I HAVE SARS TO YOU!!!
-.-
gonna like lock myself in some corner or sth and cry.
cry.
cry to sleep.

24/7 locked up

bored.
like seriously.
who can EVER enjoy staying at home, SICK, weak and all -.- bleah.
pissin’ much, i’m missing all the homework, it’ll lead to a massive snowball effect. shit.
ahhhh. i need some form of escape! like now! All i’ve been doing all day is clicking some golden trumpet saying “Hunter’s Horn”, getting sick of it! occasionally i’d also open the anime page and watch one piece. SEE thats how no life i am.
think happy i guess.. i’ll try…

OH at least i get to sms someone(: hahaha! awesome! (: gives me the thrill i ever need to move on, occasionally a call too (: guess thats the only happy thing (: ah well, im content, more than that!

love, what a beautiful thing. *dreams*
-ted! (:

bored

yo ppl.
gah i’m quarantined for a week! this totally sucks man. I couldnt even go church yesterday.. how did i even think that staying at home would be more fun than going to school? o.O
I’m supposed to be doing some self-study crap, turns out the only thing i have strength to do is type.
Then wherever i go also must wear a stupid mask! please luh, its not even confirmed that i have H1N1 luhh.
Oh ya! must tell you about the doctor who screened me. He was like “i highly recommend that you dont take the test. Firstly, it costs a lot of money, secondly, there’s no point because the only treatment for H1N1 is treating the current symptoms.” Gosh. i almost screamed luh. line up ALL the way in some stuffy room only to be told this type of crap -.- somemore kena quarantined. wtp?
so yeah. what have i done today? nothing actually.. woke up at 5.50 (stupid body clock), had enough energy to type a message then went back to sleep till 8!!! omgg i felt sooo sick then – the faint sensation. Then had to slowly walk down the longg staircase to have my breakfast. the medicine didnt do much good until after i went to sleep again. keep on coughing! my throat so sore already ): cant even laugh on the phone! sucks.
I guess there are some good points luh, i mean staying at home.
Finally get to have some rest, sms more, talk more, sleep more (: awesome stuff
but its so sad i have to miss FoA and choir. So ironic, the Vice-President of guitar also quarantined. that means on Saurabh and Jeremy will be leading the guitar O: wonder how it’ll be. haha.
pray for me ya? got lots of work to catch up with.

-ted! (:

back to work. bleah.

so yep back to school as per normal.
damn sian leh. all the chasing of undone homework yet again. sighh.
oh well.. i have to start loving school again. haha
be the mugger i was, stay in IB, do well.
Hopefully score 42+ points, go uni, go on with life.
how nice. haha.

oh ya!
must tell you about yesterday (:
study group! haha. cant say much in the morning, other than it was super fun, and special (:
cant stop thinking about that part..
but yep after lunch period, i got down to doing lang arts!!
super cool. now im addicted to writing my own play. haha, i better score 7pts for this.

yep thats all.
boring eh?…

-ted.

fun redefined

whoo!
another awesome day (:
started with CHURCH! some youth pastor from another church came to preach today, totally hilarious (: ministered to us all. next, PLH! awesome fun! haha, we tried evangelizing to “Angie, the perfect guai non-christian”, then out of the blue, i had to rush off to visit my grandma (: broke her elbow… but glad she’s fine now luh. After that, i went back to church for believers, haha got the songs stuck in my head!!

now here the high-ness really begins!
after believers, i hoped over to the study table. haha, zw teaching esther. cool stuff. i actually remember what an ‘ohm’ is. like awesome eh?
i was crapping around with jk for the longest time, haha, feel damn guilty for being the main distraction. bleh. haha.
so after that i flew to the airport! stoned there for like the longest time, then finally caught up with the rest of the gang – seeing ek off ): so sadd!
so yep, but still, we had a damn fun time together! haha, all the laughing crap! up to the point ek was LATE! for his plane. haha, poor him luhh.
after that we went off, sat in Mr Jon Kong’s (mom’s) MERCEDES! haha whee! all the way to, um raffles town club, then had a bus ride, and mrt ride with Mr Matthew Tan, this was when he said something which will go down in our (09 admin) quote book somehow.. (:

the more you look at the future and plan for it, the more you’ll look back at where you are now in the future

cool stuff eh?
haha. yep thats my day. totally whacked out fun!

-ted! (: